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Nov. 17th, 2009 @ 09:33 pm So hey, I hear it takes a village
If anyone has any help, tips, suggestions, offers of diversion, this would be a good time for them. I've hit a wall with the demands of baby raising. With the obligatory disclaimers (love him to no end *blah, blah*, wouldn't trade him for the world *blah, blah*), I'm really burned out.
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Nov. 15th, 2009 @ 09:51 am [sarcasm] Life of the Party [/sarcasm]
A and I had an early Thanksgiving with his family yesterday. The G-parents kept C overnight so we could have a night of adult-centric fun. A friend was having a her birthday party. We could have gone to dinner and a movie. We could have scrubbed the baby-goo off of the kitchen floor. The possibilities are endless.

In reality, I slept in the car on the way back then stumbled to the couch when we got home. I was out by 4PM. I woke up at 7:00 this morning to a whining cat and slightly sore back.

I've been in a retched funk since last Saturday's all-day baby ER visit. Not so much because of the visit, but because of the subsequent exhaustion I couldn't shake. It seems that what I needed was 15 hours of uninterrupted sleep. I'm still yawning, but feel pretty good.
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Nov. 4th, 2009 @ 01:34 pm Baby Updates
I've given up posting baby updates on the lj's. It looks like the last week I put up is 34.

The current week is 64.

I'm still sending them out through email with a link to the photos on flickr. If anyone who isn't getting the emails wants to continue to see them, I'm happy to add you.
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Nov. 4th, 2009 @ 01:20 pm That's why I have a stack of red envelopes...
...filled with movies that make Andy shudder. )
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Oct. 17th, 2009 @ 10:44 am Two things
1) C's molars are tearing triangular flaps of flesh off of his gum ridge as they break through.  They're not in yet, but he has zombie-like shreds of tissue hanging in his mouth.  Human bodies are not the pinnacle of design.

2) The day care issues are resolved to my eventual satisfaction.  Not everything is in place yet, but they have communicated a pretty good plan and timeline.  One of C's infant teachers is going to move up to the 1 year old room and they have a new person starting soon.  Ms. J is a very good and caring teacher.  She'll put up with no crap from the new teacher if she sucks, but is easy to get along with if she is good with the kids. 
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Oct. 10th, 2009 @ 01:22 pm Quicky
1) We have a walking and talking (sort of) baby.  He's starting to look like a kid when he's doing certain things. 

2) I had a dream where some jerk sent me a stoat and two black footed ferrets in them mail and random people kept abandoning cats in our house.  
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Sep. 18th, 2009 @ 01:45 pm NO more soggy babies
Thanks to all who responded to my "OMG DAYCARE TEACHER OF THE DEVIL" post.  It was very helpful to hear that I wasn't being an unrealistic dive bombing helicopter mom. 

I talked to the director of the center and she is going to document it and remind all of the teachers at the staff meeting this week to check the kids to be sure they have clean diapers and dry clothes before they go down for a nap.  No retaliation against my boy. 

I'm still keeping a closer, more suspicious eye on things until I'm satisfied that they're providing decent care.  I'm cautiously optimistic. 
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Sep. 8th, 2009 @ 10:32 pm Put up
13 cups of tomatoes sealed and in the freezer.  Not bad for an evening. 

Next time I'll follow EVERYONE's advice and freeze them first.  [sarcasm]Just because anyone with basic knowledge of the equipment tells me to freeze them first, then vacuum seal them doesn't mean I shouldn't just toss them in a bag and vacuum away. [/sarcasm]  They are sealed and the machine is unbroken. 

Yeah for garden goodness in winter. 
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Sep. 7th, 2009 @ 08:01 pm Birthday weekend
Saturday:
Slept in a bit.  A and I took C to the zoo. The boy and I rode the carousel (on the otter - of course) and waved to dad each time we came around.   It was the first time C paid attention to the animals.  He pointed to the otters.  He waited for the seals to pop up and clapped when they came up for air.  Pointed to the lions and tiger and said, "kiii" (kitty).  While we failed to meet up with [info]lexi_cat  and jason-no-blog,  we had much fun. 

Sunday:
C was up early, so we were all up early.  We met the 'rents-in-law in Johnson Creek for a late breakfast and baby transfer.  During a tasty diner breakfast, where C did his best to feel up the waitress, I was wished a happy birthday.  They made off with the baby.  A and I headed back to Madison to meet [info]lynnaland [info]badger2305  for a birthday (mine and hers) lunch.  Good conversation and pie was had.  After lunch, we again failed to meet up with [info]lexi_cat  and jason-no-blog for a movie.  We went to see District 9.  The highlight was the People-Go-Explody Guns (technical name).   Better than Catwoman, but wouldn't recommend.  I also enjoyed some grown up time with A.  MUCH BETTER than Catwoman.  Would recommend.  Would try again. 

Monday:
Yeah, three day weekend.   A let me sleep in and I woke up to him making coffee.  We headed out to the 'rents-in-law to retrieve our child.  The boy was happy and had slept well for his grandparents.  We had a nice late lunch/ early supper and CAKE. 

I'm very, very happy and had a great birthday. 
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Sep. 2nd, 2009 @ 11:00 pm If felt fails, use leather
Post felt-fail, I used the felt booties as a pattern for blue suede shoes for the boy.  Mostly because I had some scrap suede.  Using leather involved less stitching and resulted in a slicker product.  Setting the snaps was ugly, since I don't have the right tools and resorted to pounding with hammers and bits of metal rod.   When I get them on the child, I'll take pictures. 

Starting a project it exciting, but I procrastinate.  While I'm enthusiastic to start, if I don't work on it obsessively, it will slowly migrate to the room where projects go to die and join the slowly accumulating sediment of unfinished bits.  Like the calcified bodies of so many small sea creatures forming increasingly dense layers, they will eventually come to the surface of a mountainous pile far from their original home.  They won't live again, but they may provide a moment of wonder and curiosity for those who find them. 

Starting a project, I know that I'll either fail to finish it or work on it obsessively to the exclusion of other obligations.  This project was small enough that it only consumed 5 days and it is done!
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Sep. 1st, 2009 @ 02:05 am It's 1:00. Do you know where your sleep is?
Mine is missing.  I woke up at 1:00 feeling more awake than I have all week.  I tried a round of self-talk similar to that I would use with the baby, "No, it's sleep time now.  Close your eyes."  After an hour, I gave up.  I just need to decide if I should get out some leather and work on a set of toddler shoes, cut out a pattern to sew, or try some relaxation yoga. 

I'm guessing that I won't feel this wide awake at 6:00. 
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Aug. 28th, 2009 @ 11:43 pm Felt
I attempted to make felt tonight.  I managed to mat the wool into a felt-like fabric, but it didn't pull together as thickly as I hoped.  Also, the colors bled like mad and I lost the pattern. 

It should work for the slippers I want to make.  They'll just be more like sewn socks. 

Also, I fear it will take longer than I would like to get the smell of boiling wool out of the house. 
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Aug. 19th, 2009 @ 08:33 pm 1
Baby's a year old. 

Amazing. 
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Aug. 3rd, 2009 @ 08:23 am OMG< The TEETHING
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So much teething!  There is no end to the teething!  C is in constant, sleep depriving pain.   When the boy can't sleep, we can't sleep.  Tylenol has no power.  Orajel has no power.  It seems that only biting the mom has the power to soothe. 

Come on, you stupid teeth, pop in to place and stop paining the baby already! 
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Jul. 31st, 2009 @ 10:26 pm Oh, Hey! Feminists hate men less than expected!

http://www3.interscience.wiley.com/cgi-bin/fulltext/122352953/HTMLSTART

The study linked above seems to show that women and men who self-identify as feminists hate men less than women and men who do not identify as feminist. 

Aw man, and I wanted to get out my ballz0bustn beeyoch bootz to go with my ironic typing. 
 
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Jul. 31st, 2009 @ 10:15 pm Very sad contemplation of losing a child

It's been a long time since I've cried over a blog post.  It is beautifully written, but *trigger warning*!!

Farewell to My Littlest One  )
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Jul. 31st, 2009 @ 10:07 pm Dealing with hot button conversations- a la Dr. Free-Ride

Being able to recognize subjects about which you can't be rational is more useful than deceiving yourself that you can remain detached while discussing them.  If you try to rationally discuss and negotiate a topic which is a non-negotiable hot button for you, laying a rational groundwork is a waste of time, since you will discard rational discourse when the non-rational line is reached. 

"This doesn't mean that no one could have such a rational dialogue. Nor does it mean the people who could have that rational dialogue are moral monsters. They may just be better at acknowledging that their feelings, while deeply held, need not be binding on everyone else.

Finally, I don't think having a[n irrational] line is necessarily a defect (at least, to the extent that you can acknowledge it is not grounded in rational arguments, nor need it be binding on others, although your feelings about others not bound by it may not be wholly rational, either)."

However, it is important to recognize that their particular point of view is very personal, is grounded in emotion that other people may not share, and that a their different point of view is not prima facie wrong.  Deciding that they are wrong is to value your ideological stance more than you value empathy for other people. 

Cutting off empathy for others makes being a member of a community problematic. 


**This is lifted - quoted and paraphrased from Dr. Free-Ride's blog "Adventures in Science and Ethics".  I neglected to save the link when I wrote saved the doc, but if you google it, it comes up easily enough.  The original article was about the ethics of scientific testing on animals - cats in particular, a topic about which I have mixed feelings.  However, the rationale is more applicable for me to a broader range of topics. 
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Jul. 28th, 2009 @ 03:41 pm We're back for New Mexico
Photos to follow.

Even well behaved babies are exhausting while traveling. 

Babies! On a Plane! 


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Jul. 22nd, 2009 @ 02:00 pm Vacation
We're off to New Mexico to see grandma and great grandma!  Baby's first air travel.  *shudder*  Wish me well. 
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Jul. 3rd, 2009 @ 10:39 am Why Breed?
A friend posted an entry about an acquaintance who got pregnant so that she would have someone born loving her/ would always love her.  While that's a saddeningly common sentiment, it set my inner rant monkeys howling. 

I transitioned from strongly anti-breeding (in regards to myself - not opposed to the generation of more children) to immanently pro-breeding (pro=for, not professional) in a relatively short period of time.  During this time I read a lot of parenting books written with a negative tone towards parenting: I'm OK, You're a Brat*, The Mask of Motherhood** and a couple of others.  I found them useful, since most parenting books are so saccharine that I'm tempted to throw them against the wall after a couple of pages.   Yes, yes,  he's my bundle of joy /precious little sunshine/ darling of my heart and I must be subhuman since I want to stick him in a plastic storage tub and put him on the deck so that I can get an hour of sleep.  The positive books didn't acknowledge that negative feelings are possible, or worse.  They say something like, "With all of the time it takes to care for your sweet baby, you may have some feelings of sadness or stress.  These will pass.  The joy and love you have for your baby makes it completely worth it!"  Way to disregard my experience and implying that my occasional VERY NEGATIVE feelings towards the kid are abnormal.  The negative books not only validated that my feelings of frustration are normal, but provided a more realistic idea of what to expect.  When they came up, it was easier to recognize that they would, in fact, pass. 

Huh.  This post is taking a sharp left turn from where I intended to go with it...

To sum up the rambling paragraph above and attempt to tie it in to the point of the post, parenting is HARD.  The good points, which are significant, come packaged with a lot of frustration, self sacrifice, and grindingly hard work.  I'm glad I had that expectation before I started, or I would have been destroyed when I had to deal with the reality of parenting.  I've found being a mom LESS difficult and more enjoyable than I expected. 

However, it is very consuming.  While A and I don't have a crazy globe-trotting, party-centric lifestyle and the baby hasn't significantly changed the activities we do, he's completely changed our life.  Most of the changes aren't either good or bad.  They're just additional or different considerations.  They're things we do to make our corner of the world non-deadly for the kid, easier for us, and less annoying for other people we interact with.  So much of parenting is serving the kid's needs. 

Which brings me to my point:  Parenting is a service job.  The ONLY reason to choose parenting is because you want to dedicate a significant portion of your life to helping a young one grow to maturity and independence.  If you want something for yourself besides the satisfaction of having done what you can to help them become a capable human, you're doing it for the wrong reason.  Sure, the kid is likely to love you and may "carry on your genetic legacy".  However, there is a very real possibility that he or she may not.  Parents are people and they are not perfect.  Kids, even grown kids, are not perfect and may hold a parent's humanness against them and hate them.  The kid may be opposed to becoming a parent or unable to have kids. 

Unlike a relationship between adults, parenting is NOT reciprocal.  It's all about what you can give to the kid, not what the kid gives to you.  Once they're grown, it may be different.  I can't speak to that. I haven't come to that bridge yet. 
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